I am usually a heavy sleeper. My usual night pattern is to fall deeply into slumber only to be pulled out from a full night’s shuteye by my two deafening alarm clocks. Not so in this first week and a half in Mysore.
I am so excited to practice that my body clock is playing tricks on me. Not only am I am getting up before my first alarm, but many times well before it.
One night last week, I must have drifted off to sleep sometime past 8:45pm. I woke up and looked at the windows trying to surmise whether the darkness outside could be that of early morning. Maybe its time to get up, I thought. I looked at my alarm to find that it was only still 9:30pm—only 45 minutes had passed! How in the world could I think it was nearly morning? I tucked myself into bed, surrendered back to sleep. When I woke up again, feeling pretty rested, if now I was closer to my start time. I looked at the clock it was 9:45pm—a measly 15 minutes had passed!
Though that’s the most extreme case so far, I’ve been waking myself out of sleep pretty consistently of late, well before my time. 11:15, 12:30, 1…
This is the energy of the shala’s call. It wakes me in the morning. Not just me, but all of us, motivating us to get up well before dawn. Its drawn us all here to Mysore, India, to practice, to be present, to just be—and that’s worth waking up for.
Sweet... hope it gets better, after all you have 4 months to go right? thank God for that!!!
ReplyDeleteby the way, I do that a lot too... wake up 1/2 hour later thinking is 5 AM...
Hi there! I've been reading your blog and enjoying it thoroughly. I've just arrived in Mysore for a month of practice with Ajay in Lakshmipuram, and was wondering if there was anyway we could meet up for lunch or dinner one of these days? I'm a 30-year-old French girl traveling on my own, and would love to meet some nice people while in India. My name's Emilie and my email is remedios43@gmail.com
ReplyDeleteHope to hear from you, and if not, keep on writing!